Revenge.

Reminiscing 7 years back when I cried so hard that made tears accompany me every night. Waking up every morning with regret. Praying with tears streaming down the cheeks. (Serius tak khusyuk). Losing appetite, and the list goes on. 

You ask me how much does it hurts? It's like you're enduring the pain of someone is trying to take out your liver. Yeah, that hurt. Hah? Kenapa liver? Dangg.


It's nothing on earth like putus cinta ke apa. It's actually when you're dissapointed with yourself. And of course, your parents too.


It's when I don't get 5A in UPSR. You know what, I'm sort of in the list of students-who-will-get-5A in my school. I am in the target list! So you know how does it feels like when you don't get 5A? No, you don't understand bcos you got 5A. And I didn't.


At that moment, I hate phone calls, text message and etc. Semua orang nak tanya dapat berapa and it was actually hurt tau dak?? I just felt like migrating to Mars and stay there for a few years and when things get better, I'll be back.


But then I realized, even if I cried that this earth will be flooded, nothings gonna change. NOTHING. ZILCH. So, I made up mind. I decided to have revenge! Yeah, REVENGE!

Fall 7 times. Get up 8.

So it was in 2007 when I finally objectify the revenge . It takes me 3 years to realisasikannya. Eventually, hard work has paid off. Not to forget to those prays of course. I got 8A in PMR. Man, I feel like floating in the air with a pair of wings!

At that time, I love phone calls, text messages and meeting saudara-mara. Hewhewhew. I got tremendous congratulations and of course money and gift too. My life is bliss.

Person who gave this has left me. Left for forever. May Allah bless you there. This is so meaningful. Related families and friend would grasp what I really mean and why does it has to be chicken. I did laughed when I got this. Allahuakbar, I miss you.

So the achievement was repeated again, in 2009. I got almost all A if Physics don't mess it. It's, 8A in SPM. Whatever it is, I am always grateful. Alhamdulillah. I did made the parents cry. That's what I want the most.

Bukan nak sangat hadiah, duit tu semua. Seriously. I want to make them cry bcos of meh. And I did it. *Eyebrows up and down.

So beautiful people, don't give up. Whatever it is, just don't give up. You'll never know what's life is offering you in front. :)


Remember, rainbow always come after rain. Just bear with the thunder. It's only temporary before you get to see the mesmerizing beautiful rainbow. Insya Allah. 

Oh, one more thing. You know what will be our greatest achievement? It's when we succeed in life and the hereafter. I crave for it!

p/s: Congratulations Hadi Alloha. 8A in PMR has leaded the mom burst into tears yesterday. Great job. 

Bui-bui.